Benjamin from Shmoota.com

Well, another year gone by. It's no longer 2008, it's 2009. 2009 means a lot to me. This is the year that I graduate from high school, the year that I turn 18, the year that I attend college, and the year that Cassandra and I will have to make a very important decision. Although 2009 will hold many important things in my life, I'm not worried. I'm ready for this, all of this. I don't care what people say, I'll never miss high school. I'll probably only stay in touch with just a handful of people that I graduate with. I couldn't care less about anyone else. I like the idea of meeting new people in college, I like the idea of gaining more freedom, and I love the thought of where Cassandra and I will be.

Cassandra is the best thing that's happened to me in life. I went from being depressed, unfriendly, and not knowing what I want to do in life to the complete opposite of all of those. I'm happy now I feel like I have more to live for. I've regained faith in God. I'm always trying to be friendly to other people. I try to never be rude whether I don't like the person or it's a stranger. It's so awesome to think about how we've been dating now for ONE year and ONE month. It thrills me to think about it. I love the time that we've spent with each other this past year. I'm very excited to see what the year 2009 has in store for us. Cassandra has always been honest with me. She's been very good at always telling me the truth. I'm so glad I've got such an honest girlfriend. Unfortunately, there has been times when I thought she wasn't being truthful. I can't believe that I used to think that once in a while. She's never given me a reason to think that way. I'm just glad and proud to say that I trust her 100%. We're both very honest with each other. I feel honesty is one of the most important things that needs to be there in order to have a real functioning relationship. I just can't believe it! Cassandra and I have been together for over a year now! One day I thought this would never be possible, it seemed like a year was going to take a long time to go by. Now we've been dating for over a year and it feels like it's gone by so quick! I love Cassandra. I mean it, I really LOVE Cassandra. Someday we're going to be living with each other raising a family. I'm looking forward to that day. It's going to be great. I read an article recently that I stumbled across online talking about why marriages don't last. One of the main issues was dishonesty. As I talked about earlier, that won't be a problem with us at all! Cassandra has always been there for me. When my mom was in the hospital and we didn't know how things were going to turn out with her she was able to get a ride up to the hospital which was 2 hours away to stay with me and comfort me. I'll never forget that. Her being there for me was one of those things that made me realize how much I needed her in my life. I never forget how much I need her in my life because every day I'm reminded of how I need her by the things that she says and things that she does. Sometimes she's not able to do certain things or say certain things because we're not able to see each other or talk on the phone until late. That's when I've been able to really realize how much she means to me and how badly I need her in my life.

I love you, Cassandra. Thanks for being beyond the typical high school girlfriend. Thanks for being thoughtful, honest, and REAL.

So this is how it goes. Cassandra is at her Dad's house for 2 weeks. She's been there since very early Saturday morning. We've only been able to talk one to three times a day. We only actually "talk talk" once. What I mean by that is at 11:30p.m. we actually talk longer than 15 minutes. Unfortunately when it comes to just talking on the computer and having a good time her and I always fail at it. We always start a tiny argument then it becomes bigger... you know like the snowball effect. It just keeps getting bigger and bigger then just ---- CRASHES and everything falls apart. Fortunately, at the end of it all everything turned out okay. It's very clear that neither of us are perfect. We both make mistakes. No more arguing though. We're not going to let stupid things grab a hold of us anymore. We're going to try hard to be very careful. We've been dating now for a little over 7 months. It's been a very bumpy 7 months but everything we have gone through is just experience for the future. We'll know not to make certain silly mistakes. It's very clear that both of us are seeking a long-term relationship with each other. Neither of us want nothing more than to just get on with our lives... with EACH OTHER. This two weeks we can't see each other is NOTHING. We're going to be living together sometime in the near future and we'll be together for as long as we live. I get tired of people being irritating. Why does everyone assume people aren't capable of love until after high school? I think it's a bunch of bull$@!*. Love doesn't have an age. Just because I may be 17 and she 18, that does NOT meant that we are incapable of actually truly loving each other. We know darn well what we're getting ourselves into and neither of us think it's anything bad. I just can't wait until that day when we're both looking our best and say "I do" to each other. It's sure going to be one of the happiest moments of my life. People say don't marry young... but I say why not? If I had the choice of being very financially stable or extremely happy I would definitely choose being extremely happy. Happiness is one thing many people lack and is why some people are just so frigging miserable. I'm happy, she's happy. We're both HAPPY. It's amazing how we can spend so much time just cuddling beside each other and just talk to each other about things. I love her so much, more than I feel anyone will ever know or understand. Obsession? No. Love? Yes! Now I just need to wait until this dreadful two weeks passes...

Cassandra Anne, you're everything I've always wanted in a girl and more. Don't you dare ever think that I think otherwise. I love you so much... Really? Yes really.

-Benjamin.

It's been half a year now. Cassandra and I have been dating for 6 months. It seems like it can't get any better than this... I love her so much. I'd do anything for her. She's my everything; my all.

I can't believe it. Only 10 more days and Cassandra and I will have been dating for 6 months. I'm really excited because we've been together now for half a year. I'm also excited because I know this relationship is never going to fail. 6 months, 7 months, a year, 2 years, 5 years.... it's going to be so fantastic. I just can't wait.

I love you, Cassandra.